Growing Up
Well it's been a while since the last time. Hey! Happy new year! For the last 6 month life just get tangled up and actually there's a lot I want to talk about but I think growing up might gather all my thought into one perfect title.
So right now I’m a senior and trying to get my life together. Well I don’t have parents, my brother still in college and I don’t have a lot of money. So because I want to go to college I have to search, find, and get scholarship while I’m still dealing with grades at school, last project from every teacher, extra credit, and all that jazz. So life feel so heavy and exhausting. So while I was trying to plan my life, my family started to give ‘advice’ which is great (?)
Okay, they probably not giving an advice and their thought about my future but their concern about their future. This is the most simple explanation I will give to you. I’m an orphan and I live with their care. My dream is to be a doctor, so if I go to med school they thing I’m going to break their bank, even though I’m going to pay that debt to bank and not them. They explain this to me not actually like that but more tone down
Last December I spent my Christmas and new year at my grandparent’s house. Me, my brother, my aunt, my uncle, and my cousin. This aunt and uncle is living their live as a higher middle class (underline higher) and my grandparents actually also live by their care. They asked me about my future and I think that talk for me just saying about that they don’t care about my future.
My life hasn’t been easy for the past 6 years after my mom’s death and got even harder after my dad’s too. I’ve been toss around moving from different places, treated probably bad enough, and that make me have to grow up and be more wiser.
The thing is about growing up that I found very weird and cool at the same time is how there is a lot of different opinion and different principle in life. The events, their treated, their words, etc that happen to me literally make me quickly enough to be wiser and to grown up and one thing, to make my life principle. How some of their advice about life is different enough from what I’ve been heard, told, and taught from my parents and bible. Not a different that is disturbing but a different that literally clash with mine. It is so eye opening how that what my surrounding thinks of something that is a right thing to do and probably the world think different about that. Somehow I felt like a bubble just burst around me and I’m not in my comfort zone anymore. I felt like that’s certain things that in that month of December how me as a teenager going to be an adult and planning my own life opening up, discussing to an adult but having a very different perception about life and how should I live that. About what is the thing that actually important to them and what’s actually important to me. How my eyes are open that actually a lot and maybe surround me is a very materialistic person and that’s very eye opening.
Maybe you who read this will be saying, well you haven’t work or you haven’t seen the outside world where you have to survive in this cruel world. Well I’m going to tell you that I kinda know how that feel. I work as a freelance hairstylist. Even though you thought that’s not a real job well guess what? It is. Do you think it’s not tiring enough to wake up at 2 am because your clients is so far away and you need 2,5 hours long journey and I have to compete with salon hairstylist and professional hair stylish. And top of that is all the money actually goes to paying all my needs and THEM. So yes, I know how hard it is to work and to make money, so for me I don’t want money defy my important things in my life.
For me to live and to be teenager at this point in this decades actually make me so greatfull. How? I live in a world where people in front of my screen telling me about their life how money ruin their happiness. Yes you do need money to live, but that’s not your life. Giving me proof to what I belive how my live events that happen to me really teach me that what my principle actually is real and truth and not some teenage dream or reckless decision about life. And if you think I made this life principle probably because I’m a teenage in my rocky life, I actually been talking to my teacher in my school. I talked about my life and this principles to 2 very wise people that I know and they really support me about this thing, growing up , deciding to live a life that I want.
For those who out there thinking why I’m not in line with my family, friend, school, etc? Well probably my friend you are growing up. Whether you are in your 17, middle to late 20is, early 30is, or even lower that 17 or maybe up there in 40 up. We are growing up. It’s not gonna stop. Maybe our body stop growing until out early 20. But we still grow in our mental, our social, and our spiritual self. My best advise is for you whose out there growing, accept it and evaluates about your grow
So right now I’m a senior and trying to get my life together. Well I don’t have parents, my brother still in college and I don’t have a lot of money. So because I want to go to college I have to search, find, and get scholarship while I’m still dealing with grades at school, last project from every teacher, extra credit, and all that jazz. So life feel so heavy and exhausting. So while I was trying to plan my life, my family started to give ‘advice’ which is great (?)
Okay, they probably not giving an advice and their thought about my future but their concern about their future. This is the most simple explanation I will give to you. I’m an orphan and I live with their care. My dream is to be a doctor, so if I go to med school they thing I’m going to break their bank, even though I’m going to pay that debt to bank and not them. They explain this to me not actually like that but more tone down
Last December I spent my Christmas and new year at my grandparent’s house. Me, my brother, my aunt, my uncle, and my cousin. This aunt and uncle is living their live as a higher middle class (underline higher) and my grandparents actually also live by their care. They asked me about my future and I think that talk for me just saying about that they don’t care about my future.
My life hasn’t been easy for the past 6 years after my mom’s death and got even harder after my dad’s too. I’ve been toss around moving from different places, treated probably bad enough, and that make me have to grow up and be more wiser.
The thing is about growing up that I found very weird and cool at the same time is how there is a lot of different opinion and different principle in life. The events, their treated, their words, etc that happen to me literally make me quickly enough to be wiser and to grown up and one thing, to make my life principle. How some of their advice about life is different enough from what I’ve been heard, told, and taught from my parents and bible. Not a different that is disturbing but a different that literally clash with mine. It is so eye opening how that what my surrounding thinks of something that is a right thing to do and probably the world think different about that. Somehow I felt like a bubble just burst around me and I’m not in my comfort zone anymore. I felt like that’s certain things that in that month of December how me as a teenager going to be an adult and planning my own life opening up, discussing to an adult but having a very different perception about life and how should I live that. About what is the thing that actually important to them and what’s actually important to me. How my eyes are open that actually a lot and maybe surround me is a very materialistic person and that’s very eye opening.
Maybe you who read this will be saying, well you haven’t work or you haven’t seen the outside world where you have to survive in this cruel world. Well I’m going to tell you that I kinda know how that feel. I work as a freelance hairstylist. Even though you thought that’s not a real job well guess what? It is. Do you think it’s not tiring enough to wake up at 2 am because your clients is so far away and you need 2,5 hours long journey and I have to compete with salon hairstylist and professional hair stylish. And top of that is all the money actually goes to paying all my needs and THEM. So yes, I know how hard it is to work and to make money, so for me I don’t want money defy my important things in my life.
For me to live and to be teenager at this point in this decades actually make me so greatfull. How? I live in a world where people in front of my screen telling me about their life how money ruin their happiness. Yes you do need money to live, but that’s not your life. Giving me proof to what I belive how my live events that happen to me really teach me that what my principle actually is real and truth and not some teenage dream or reckless decision about life. And if you think I made this life principle probably because I’m a teenage in my rocky life, I actually been talking to my teacher in my school. I talked about my life and this principles to 2 very wise people that I know and they really support me about this thing, growing up , deciding to live a life that I want.
For those who out there thinking why I’m not in line with my family, friend, school, etc? Well probably my friend you are growing up. Whether you are in your 17, middle to late 20is, early 30is, or even lower that 17 or maybe up there in 40 up. We are growing up. It’s not gonna stop. Maybe our body stop growing until out early 20. But we still grow in our mental, our social, and our spiritual self. My best advise is for you whose out there growing, accept it and evaluates about your grow
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